Roland Velunta

Emotionally Frustrated

I hold my current perspective. No matter what form of friendship you have, or how much somebody loves you, you can never show them how truly sad you feel. Even if you feel like breaking down and crying, you can’t. Because as soon as you start to do that, you’ve already started to weaken your friendship. Of course this probably only applies to those who are chronically troubled, but in the end nobody likes a sad guy. And in all paradoxical honesty, I can’t argue with that. When you see your friend is sad, or in any kind of emotional state, it kind of rubs off on you. And nobody wants to feel depressed. I’ve never thought I’d say it, but in this case, I think it’s okay to be fake :/ Who knows, maybe you’ll lie to yourself long enough that you’ll start believing it.

I hate getting jealous over stupid reasons.

(via xkidxspacelyx)

5/14/12

Thank goodness AP testing is over. And now the last stretch of school. I really can’t wait until summer. I hate school so much. And like every year I’m going to try make the summer as productive as possible. I really hope I can actually achieve that this year XD. But even as school is coming to a close I have so much homework! Junior year sucks… It really does. Not that senior year looks any easier, but I think I’ll enjoy it somehow. 

Hey, if you’re reading this I hope you’ll figure out this is directed towards YOU! Which also means you reading my tumblr which I told you not to read -_____- But since you’re here, I’ve been meaning to tell you something. It’s probably going to sound a little weird, haha. Anyway, I don’t think I’ve ever said this to you, but you remind me a lot of myself. Not completely, but there are similar aspects. And mind you, they aren’t similarities you want to share. We’re both pretty damn lazy. I know that you feel it’s too late, but I need you to believe that it’s not. Try, with every ounce of effort you have in yourself, to stop sleeping so much! Haha, I know it’s ridiculous, but I don’t want you to find out the hard way that it suuuucks. No amount of sleep will feel good enough to compensate for the loss of time. You’re smart, and it’s not too late. I’d hate to see you follow in my footsteps.

As a last note, even though transcendentalist works are an incredibly slow read, all this self-reliance stuff is pretty cool. “Speak what you think now in hard words and tomorrow speak what tomorrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict everything you said today” I like that… only I wonder what I’d say when someone uses yesterday against what I say today. 

I’m gaaaaaay.

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